Thoughts “in Flight”

All of us entertain brief scenarios of thought and conversational exercise in our minds, don’t we?  I’ve been thinking about that lately.  When God clears our heads, there’s even more room for such things – but in an environment of peace.  That’s what He’s done for me.  Through (what seems like) a million deliverances over the past decade and a half, Christ has cleared my mind of worrisome forecasts in fear and foreboding the enemy had concocted for me.  I’m in a better place than I’ve ever been in terms of clear thinking and awareness of what God has for me.  No longer deluded or confused or frightened. (I cover that testimony in Jesus’ Blood.)

Have I “arrived”?  Mercy, no!

But have I been redeemed, blood-washed, and secured in Jesus?  ABSOLUTELY and all to His stunning Glory.  Amen!

So, in the theater of my mind I view circumstances past, present, and future through new and more compassionate vision.  That’s been a problem for me in the past – having compassion.  I’ve always been so wounded or angry or prideful in my views and opinions, my heart has barely had a chance to truly beat.  All stone, no flesh.

But Christ has changed all that.  Through His goodness shed upon me, I feel the warmth of merciful blood flowing through my veins, and His compassion has a new and permanent name within my being:  “Forgiveness”.

I admit it’s also been a great motivator to know and receive this scripture passage,

“For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.” (Matt. 6:14-15)

Above everything else of maintenance and necessity in my life, I need God’s forgiveness.  I can’t live without it.  No one can.  So, gut-level honesty says first things first, Sharon – you need to forgive. The Righteousness of God is in this practice, as well as God’s seal of forgiveness upon your own humanity.  There you go.

As I review brief strands of thought in soliloquy and scenario, I write them down and share them with God.  Yes, He already knows them, but He likes to talk with me about them as He does with everything… and our discoveries teach me about myself.  You can just “think” to Holy Spirit and He converses with you because He’s living in you – it makes things much easier in quiet situations.  :0)

The Theater of My Mind is a new (daily) blog I’ve just begun on Word Press because of what it does for me in terms of healing and knowing just where I am in thought, opinion, imagination, and desire.  As always in everything, Abba uses it to expose and deliver me and to reach out to others with similar quandaries, passions, struggles, and JOYs. Unity of the human experience in Christ Jesus is a bond and tonic to us all… I think, especially to me.

Thank You, Lord.



No Matter the Seasons

I’m grateful for different seasons in my life and I admit there was once a part of me that thought certain matters in my life would never change.  I thought God wouldn’t allow it, but I was wrong.  People do come and go in relationships in life and some stay longer than others but, eventually, everything gets redefined because that is the nature of growth.  Thank You, Jesus.

My mind cranks on through fever and bleary-eyed congestion.  When they’re not pinned to tissues pinned to my runny nose, my fingers still type as my mind grinds… it never stops (and, secretly, I don’t want it to).

I’m free of entanglements left behind while others are cautiously exposed.  God is always a careful healer.  Brick by brick and chip by chip He delicately exposes me.  I cry to Him, I come to Him in prayer and quietly crouch before Him in worship while He strokes my fevered, teary brow.  God is amazing, and He’s not afraid of colds.

This new season came as a “suddenly”, and I couldn’t be more glad but, admittedly, I’m still in a bit of shock.  So different, my God… so different being out here in the world with only You as my shelter. But then Holy Spirit sweetly whispers…  “He’s always been your only shelter, beloved.”  Ain’t it the truth! 

Merciful God I don’t want to feel guilty about being free.  I just want to be it.

I don’t want to forever long to see Your bright face.  I just want to see it.

Here I am, just You and me and freedom – all Your life has to offer.

I don’t care about anything else – I just want to be Your daughter.

It all comes down to that for me no matter where the Lord takes me in the course of His call on my life.  The pastor calling, that of the teacher, preacher, and writer are all of value and worth and purpose and meaning – absolutely.  But, to me, I’ll tell you nothing means more to me than being my (true) Father’s daughter.  Finally and completely, my Heavenly Father’s daughter.  That’s my truest, bravest, best cause for living… I can’t declare it enough… and I embrace Christ Jesus to take in the Godhead in full, clutching Them all to my breast.

“For in Him dwells all the fullness of the Godhead, bodily.”  Just listen to that.  As its truth sinks into my soul, I don’t mind the seasons changing, relationships redefined, or even “suddenlies” gripping me.  I am Jesus’ bride and He is my Bridegroom.  The door of His sacred body is closed behind us and, within the veil, are the Godhead lovingly seated before the supper of my life’s plan and circumstances… and all is well.  Their love to me is wonderful… passing the love of all mankind.  I am content and satisfied.  Amen.


Do You Know Who You Are?

Holy Spirit will always remind us of the vision God has given us.  I love Him for being faithful in doing that, for sometimes we need refreshing to the point of saving our lives – especially when life’s circuitry has clouded our hope to the point of despair.

God worked that miracle for me, recently.  He simply reminded me of who I am “in Him” – of the living and moving and being I have in Him, and of my inheritance as His child – let’s not forget that!  That, in itself, brings JOY because it’s truth.  Truth always brings relief, release, freedom, reconciliation with God, and JOY.  Even when alignment with truth involves pain, it brings reconciliation with God which fosters healing.

Only restored focus helps us realize that.

How patient is God, really?  I mean, Holy Spirit gets ignored probably more than anyone on earth; honestly, I contribute enough of that for my share and that of a few others… regretfully.  Believe it or not, though, I’m MUCH better and growing better still than I was.  But God is patient and loving and kind and doesn’t kick me to the curb or call me stupid when I’ve felt I can handle things better than He… or at least when my actions show it.

I’m much more quick on the draw to backtrack and say, wait a minute… what are you doing, Sharon?  Didn’t you hear what Holy Spirit said?  He never talks to me like that; He’s faaaar gentler with me than I ever am with myself.  He usually urges, “Just remember what I told you, beloved – it still works… its offerings are still good.”  Holy Spirit has such a tender way…

I’m feeling good; I’m looking to God for deliverance from my circumstances and for HOPE infusing and refilling my heart with confidence in who I am “in Him”.  Looking unto Jesus with that in mind always makes for a brighter day.  It’s truly awesome, trustworthy, empowering advice…

Remember who you are (in Jesus) and the RICH inheritance He’s given you!