My heart and soul’s emoting has decorated this blog, sometimes as brightly as a Christmas tree… other times, with desperate cries for help and grace and mercy.  Yet, through it all, my Abba has listened to me – and so have all of you – with an eye to aid me as Christ’s strong arms of supplication and intercession reach high and wide to the Father for answers that swiftly cover me in greater knowledge, and in His Blood.


For the faithfulness of all those sharing and reading this blog as I write it from my soul and from my strength in need and in blessing, in abounding and in tears… I also thank you.

What a saving grace it is to have a Savior such as ours!  And what sweet communion and fellowship exists between Holy Spirit and His greatest love – the awesome Body of Christ!

For being my Protector, Defender, Teacher, Husband, God, Creator, King, and Everlasting Friend… my Dear Father, Sweet Jesus, and Blessed Holy Spirit – I THANK YOU!  Merry Christmas to you all, friends; and HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION, LORD JESUS!


Your SHAMMA  =0)


Silent Screams

The Lord’s open hands receive my silent screams as He delivers me from the past.  God is all about delivering me… hot and heavy, lately. 

That’s one thing about choosing to be a nice person; you HAVE to remember to “offload” to the Lord about all the injustices done to you, all the misconceptions that bombard your psyche, the guilt you feel when you fall for one (or all) of them… or you’ll go crazy.

It’s always better to be kind – to be “nice” – as long as you know how to offload when the flesh tells you NO!  When the flesh screams at you that you’re being a fool and the world is taking advantage of you, you’ve GOT to be close to the Lord so you can receive and understand His truth… that you can’t be taken advantage of when you’re in His will – and it’s always better to be kind.

Don’t let the world get in front of you.  Don’t let the world get in front of me.  Don’t let ridiculous “excuse” and even more ludicrous “blame shifting” keep you from being nice. 

Be kind and kindly affectioned one to another… do you believe the Lord?  Do you believe that it’s really, truly worth it to be kind?  It is, you know… it just isn’t always easy.  But we keep going.  We keep going because we have to… it’s the decision we’ve made and it’s the transformation we’ve embraced; and so, we call the flesh A LIAR!  We say NO to its evil intents and interrogations, even when we sin, we say No!  We turn our backs on it and we embrace – or re-embrace – the Lord.  We cling to His TRUTH because we have to in order to live…

… and we give Him our silent screams.

I love You, Jesus.


He Shields Me From Shame

God paid all my bills today.

He’d already paid my rent… supplied all the money, I mean.

The other day I cried and spoke to the Lord, tenderly and humbly asking Him to forgive me for my ungiving heart.  I have had to learn sooo much about giving, folks.  So much about giving.  So these are my thoughts about the God Who hangs on to me even when I disgust myself with selfishness… and Who will not allow me to go sin’s way in condemnation and thoughtlessness.  Truly, He understands.

I mean, He really understands (TEARS)… will we ever be able to understand like that?

Giving is SUCH a huge part of His heart… His WHOLE HEART, I dare say; and I’ve been at least somewhat selfish all of my life; in many ways running for my life, all my life, in one way or the other.  But no pity parties here – only gratefulness to the Living God Who is paying all of my bills even though I’m not working.  I do online ministry, full-time, as He’s told me.  I want to encourage the hearts of the many YOU have called to do Your will on the earth, Father, that YOU WILL PROVIDE FOR THEM – EVERYTHING they need in every way, always.  Thank You, Abba!

Then He rubs my weakened back and shoulders, assuring me that by His mercy He will always impart Strength; assuring me of His Victory to my circumstance, and of His great love for me.  God loves me all the time and I want to be like that towards my fellow-man so much I could scream and cry all day long… because I want to be like my Father, Saints… with everything in me I want to emulate my big strong Daddy and show the world His FAITHFULNESS and the torrential rains of His Favor upon us in every way possible… His outstretched Arms and willing vulnerability – He remains emotionally vulnerable and does not care if the world deems Him foolish… for He is not.  He is Love, eternally.

God paid all my bills today, with no help from me.  He shields me from the lies and fears of shame, and reveals to me only His Truth.  Have you ever had a passion for God that just b r e a k s your heart?  Have you ever wanted Him so much that your whole heart breaks?  Have you ever been so thankful, you can’t form the words… or any words?

All you can do is cry…?

He reads the words of my heart, thankfully; because my gross utterances fall woefully short of His goodness; but He loves me still…

O, how I love Him and return His heart of blessing with all that is within me!

I love You, Abba… with all of my being, and with absolutely no shame.

As always,

Your Grateful Shamma